Current mood:	tired
Current music:	Mr.Children - youthful days

LIFE, LIFE, LIFE
One day I'll become a star, brighter than all the others in the sky,
And that day I'll shine in rainbow all over the world.

I've been trying to write songs again... but why lyrics sound like they're translated from Japanese these days... ><

Life itself is strange for me these days... I feel like I've done a complete turn around but remained in the same spot at the same time. Everything's always paradoxial like that with me... Maybe it's because in the end nothing really changes, but I'm clinging on to some faint hope that it does.

Either way... it feels strange. I don't think I've ever been this unsure of myself up until now. Like, I'm more confident than ever in the ego sense, but when I look at myself from a distance, I don't know if I'm all to pleased with the way I'm taking things now.

I've been wishing harder than ever that I'll die young these days. Don't take it the wrong way though. I'm in no sense depressed or anything, but I'm just not impressed with what the future has to offer me. So I just don't want to deal with it. It's childish, I know. It's not like I'm going to make an effort to make that wish come true or anything, but I just think it'd be the easiest end to my story.

I don't know what more I really want from this life.

Coming from a kid turning 21 in a month... pretty lame, I am. Haha.

I guess I should put my efforts into looking for something instead of hoping to escape. I should be that mature at least, right?

Peace.